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A national LGBTQI+ storytelling project curated by Maeve Marsden
featuring a book, event series and award-winning podcast

Courtney Thompson: Portrait of a High-To-Moderate Functioning Alcoholic

Courtnery Thompson tells us a fictional tale of good wine and cheap life choices.

Courtney won the ‘Queerstories’ prize as part of the Outstanding Short Story Competition. If you haven’t heard of Outstanding before, it’s an LGBTQI writing competition run by Robert Tait, Gail Hewison of Feminist Bookshop fame, and Teresa Savage, who among many accomplishments, is one of my mothers. So, I selected Courtney’s piece to be performed from loads of entries to the competition and here she is.

Courtney is a creative writing student and chronic procrastinator at the University of New South Wales originally from rural NSW.

Courtney Thompson



Hi. I’m Maeve Marsden and you’re listening to Queerstories – the podcast for the LGBTQIA storytelling night I host and programme in Sydney and Melbourne. This story was recorded at Giant Dwarf as part of my monthly Sydney event. This week – Courtney Thompson who won the Queerstories Prize as part of the Outstanding Short Story Competition. If you haven’t heard about Outstanding before, it’s an LGBTQI writing competition run by Robert Tait, Gail Hewison of feminist bookshop fame, and Teresa Savage, who among many accomplishments is one of my mothers. I read all the entries looking for a piece that belonged on the Queerstories stage, and so here Courtney is. Originally from rural New South Wales, Courtney is a creative writing student and chronic procrastinator. Aren’t we all?


Pack yourself and three backpacks full of clothes onto the green vinyl seats of a Blue Mountains Line train. Read your first-year uni textbook because you think people actually do that. Solidify new friendships on St Patrick’s Day as one girl tells you about how some dude wearing a morph suit introduced her to his goldfish right before they hooked up. Drink Guinness happily even though you think it tastes like oats and watered down Vegemite. Walk home from the station after a night out. Sing aloud to No Scrubs whilst wearing headphones, as it is 3 A.M. and the streets are empty but for your wobbling, warbling self. Once inside, continue dancing in front of your mirror to discern whether or not you can actually dance. Accept the results of this experiment as the probable reason you have come home alone.

*Audience laughs*

Receive a phone call from your mother cancelling your weekend plans for the third time in a row. Consider the fact that you honestly can’t remember the last time you saw her. Mix yourself a G & T to toast a feeling that could either be relief or disappointment. Buy one of those wheelie shopping carts that old ladies have to help you haul your groceries home. Hear the crunch of its brittle plastic wheel as you pull it off the bus. Drag it the four blocks to your door and cry over spilt milk.

Get invited to a gig your ex-boyfriend’s band is playing at. Take a swig straight from the bottle when you see that the girl you are 98.2% sure he’s fucking has also clicked “Attending.” Consider masturbating, but remove your hands from your pyjama shorts because you simply can’t be bothered.

*Audience laughs*

Plan to go dog watching in Sydney Park with a friend. Drink wine from coffee cups, and talk in grotesque detail about love interests who will most definitely not matter in three months’ time. Visit a friend in Melbourne. Go out for drinks with her and her workmates and meet a woman desperate for your group’s attention. Stare blankly at her as she assures you, and only you, that she’s not a homophobe, though you have done no more than introduce yourself. Scull your beer in a dirty toilet cubicle waiting for her to leave.

Throw back a glass of red to help you read The Twyborn Affair in the hope it will help you figure out what the fuck is going on. Close the book and finish the bottle.

*Audience laughs*

Switch from coffee to green tea because it’s healthier. Meet up with friends and chain smoke in the Courthouse Beer Garden.

*Audience laughs*

Write a bad four-chord song on the cheap, bright red ukulele your friends got you for your 20th birthday. Regret selling your guitar to pay for the service on your ’92 model Mazda that the scrap yard only paid you 50 dollars for six months later. Write a draft ad on Gumtree for other Sydney-based musicians seeking to start a band. Never publish it… thankfully.

*Audience laughs*

Down a six-pack naked, alone in your room, and wonder if the neighbours can hear you trying to harmonise with the bangers on your Get Fit, Bitch playlist.

*Audience laughs*

Invite your ex and his mate over for dinner. Elicit praise from your housemates and guests for the enchilada sauce you have made from scratch, despite your culinary skills usually being of the chuck-a-jar-of-sauce-over-some-carbs variety. Sip your wine in silence as you watch everyone getting along, and feel your heart buzz in your chest like bees in warm honey.
Have pesto pasta two nights in a row because you don’t have the energy to cook anything of nutritional value. Cringe as you remember the whisky sour and pesto pasta soup you left in a kitchen sink on Mardi Gras weekend.

*Audience laughs*

Try on the linen dress you bought in Poland for 378 złoty. Scoff with amusement at the fat peasant staring at you from the ill-assembled, strategically placed IKEA mirror that sits in the corner of your overpriced, matchbox Inner West bedroom. Laugh when you remember that you bought the dress specifically to impress the girl you fancy, the actress who you once saw wear a shapeless dress. Think about the way that while the garment itself resembled a pillowcase, when she wore it she looked more like the type of girl you’d love to drink cider within the Botanic Gardens than one you’d just let decorate your bed. Accept the fact that the Poland Dress doesn’t even pass as hipster enough to wear out in Newtown. Remember that you are $5000 in debt.

*Audience laughs*

Sit down to write a poem that’s been swirling around in your head like shit in a flushing toilet. Scribble the title “Ode to those I’ve Loved, Fucked and Sworn I’d Never Text Again.” Put your pen down to pour yourself a glass of the tawny port your housemate has left opened on the kitchen windowsill for an undisclosed period of time. Give up on the poem and open Tinder. Google “How to cut down on drinking” on your iPad at 1:34 A.M.

Resolve to have a sober night. Invite the friend you’ve slept with a few times over for dinner – the one she never liked. Tell him he can crash if he wants but decline his offer to pick up a bottle of wine from the Bottle-O by the station. When he arrives empty-handed, immediately decide you want to be drunk and alone. Hold your breath when he kisses you in an attempt to push past the fact he really, truly smells like plasticine.

*Audience laughs*

Eat, in chewable silence, and ask him to leave shortly after. Do tequila shots with your housemates in the kitchen when he finally does. Research post-graduate degrees you don’t want to do at universities you don’t want to go to, to feign productivity. Send a risky text to an ex. Scrape a bottle cap across your wrist as you wait for her to reply.
Call your mother and ask about her new job. Put the phone on loudspeaker and begin doing the dishes, interjecting at intervals well-rehearsed over two decades. Tell her you love her and that you’ll visit at the end of the month. Remain undecided as to whether you will.

Accept a casual Sunday shift at the job you spent four months trying to leave. Regret this on Saturday night as you wait for an Uber home from Oxford Street. Pay rent and have $14 left to feed yourself for the next fortnight. Spend $5.30 on a bottle of wine.

*Audience laughs*

I live large.

Email a doctor’s certificate to your lecturer for the day you were too anxious to get out of bed and slept until 4:21 P.M. Taper off your anti-depressants and quit social media cold turkey. Stare at a blank document titled “Novel” and wonder if you should’ve done it the other way around.

*Audience laughs*

Ignore the train station request to stand behind the yellow line. Feel your hair lick your face as the trains squeal past you. Envy their mobility. Thank you.

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